Oct 19 2009
Who were you when you woke up this morning?
Who were you when you woke up this morning? Are you the same person you were a few years back? I think everyone changes in their life time. Not everyone notices it nor does it always affect their life. You see, it is amazing to me when people know what they want early on, say a kid who wants to grow up to be a doctor. They start off knowing if not who, what they want to be. I never really had that. I have been undecided for most of my life.
That is why I ask… who were you when you woke up this morning? Were you the person you dreamed of becoming when you were a child? When did you know you wanted to be that person? For some it seems obvious, I for one have basically bounced around trying to find me or that person I want to be. This lifestyle has giving me the opportunity to reinvent myself several times. I have been an “artist” no not really, but have express myself through my career, graphic design on several occasions. I have been a volunteer involved in all sorts of projects. I have been a teacher as well and not to my children (that comes with motherhood) to paying students… I have taught music to toddlers for crying out loud. I have no idea why I was hired to do that. I have tried out all sorts of fun and dumb things. Always looking, trying to find the person I want to be.
But I have to say that I have been able to keep my two feet on the ground and not do anything really stupid thanks to my loving husband and children who let me be but remind me that no matter who I am at the moment, I will always be mom and wife to them.
Now, that might sound idiotic, since I just stated that I have done nothing extraordinary like trying to become a circus clown or working as a night guard… but when you decide that you are going to write a book for example (and this I did) and take 6 months to sit and write it, I could have been told by my family that I was crazy, instead what I got was all the support and encouragement I needed.
Every time I think of some new person I want to become, I have had nothing but the best from my family. I have been a mother and a wife; these personalities are the ones that I have never, nor do I ever want to give up or change because I find them to be fulfilling and rewarding more than anything else in my life; I reinvent the other part of me for intellectual purpose and for personal growth if you will. People, this is the only way to go. Be who you want to be, do what you want to do, but make sure that you have support and a place to come home to when you want to reinvent yourself again.
So to my family; thank you for being there ALWAYS! And thank you for believing in me, I think this time, I have found what I need/wanted/was dreaming of and though it has cause some commotion at home I am always happy and grateful to be able to come back home to you.
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I actually wanted to be a doctor as a child, a marine biologist when I was around 12 then either a doctor or medical researcher as a young teen.
I absolutely loved biology and asked questions on several occasions my teacher needed to ask a university professor about to get an answer.
Believe it or not I am now 32 and I am a mom and a marketer (not even related field to the one I dreamed of as a kid)
I do still think about going back to school to be a nurse maybe but certainly not a doctor because its to far off a goal really. I am quite happy with the decisions I made to get here though I have learned and experienced so much along the way.
I am proud to say that I am the person I want to be. I am proud of my ideals and proud of the woman I am becoming. I am also proud to say that i am aware that there is more out there for me, and I am working to find it. I know that my job does not and will not define me. It is a reflection of my self, but that is it. I am not what I do.
So for now I am in a position that is good for my future goals, I’m saving for school, I’m in a job that I cannot lose, and I have a mother who has told me I can move back in if I ever need to, just in case. But this is not where I want to be, its just part of the journey.
Forever I wanted to teach music. I know now that although I would be an excellent music teacher, there are too many politics involved, and I refuse to take part in or be subject to those politics. So I stepped away from that dream. And although it was hard, and made no sense to anyone but me, I know it shows more strength than staying would have.
Thank you for your comments and thoughts. Both of you prove my point; we can be someone incredible whether we dream of it this way or not.
I do wish we could all know, do and be who we want to be early on… but then; I also think that so many times the journey is also what makes us who we are. As they say it isn’t just about being there it’s the getting there that make a difference. We are what we have lived and though it isn’t always what we wanted, dreamed of or wished for, it might just be better.
I just feel that there is no limit when it comes to reinventing yourself just as long as I keep my feet on the ground, even if my head’s in the clouds.