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It is funny how one is desperate for something and when you have it, you could not have anticipated all that having it really means. This is something we tell our kids all the time but don’t always apply for ourselves. “I want a dog” the little ball of energy and enthusiasm states. Our answer is a long list of things and obligations deriving from that ownership, thus denying the petition (ok, maybe it’s just me).

But when we want something, we don’t always see the big picture. Because you see, when you wish you had something, you rarely think farther than that. It could just be lack of experience in the area; buying a house for the first time, big wish big step and little knowledge.

Or simply denial; you know, like when you want that amazing huge Xmas tree that will look oh, so beautiful in the living room, but you didn’t want to stop to think that it sheds. And that you don’t have enough decorations to fill it up, so you will have to go buy more stuff that will have to find a place in your attic/garage in a couple of months.

In my case, my wish was my “dream job”. After having looked for so many months and having done the résumé/cover letter/interview dance, finally I got a job; and it happens to be the job I really wanted. I for one wanted a job that would challenge me, that I could learn in, that would allow me to meet interesting people and yes, even travel. Well I got it.

So what’s the problem? I am certainly not complaining this is merely a thought and reflexion process on my part regarding wishes and the outcome. Because I think that one of the things we always overlook when we wish for something, is those around us. I have a family; one that I adore and that is at the centre of my universe. My children had little to do with my decision regarding this job because they don’t have any real grasp on the situation, my husband did. And we did talk about it and understood that changes would have to be made.

But the children who were not asked for their opinion will see changes immediately. I always had the opportunity to be there for them and to share with them. I was a homeroom mom for almost all of my children’s classes, altering between them from year to year. I have always been the mom who volunteers to help out at the school play and that can pick up children from school when other moms have a problem.  I have been actively involved in everything they do in school or afterschool. I was always at “home”.

Now I don’t mean to say that I will not be able to do any of these things, but for the first time in almost 16 years I have not volunteered for homeroom mom, for example. I’m just saying that you should always think about what you wish and see it play out in your life and that of those around you. You might still what it. Or you might not after realizing what it truly means in the long run and not just for you.

So in my case, I am happy really; this is just a time of change, adjustment and new challenges. And I did ask for those didn’t I?  

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